I miss you allright?

Despite the title this is not the typical I miss a certain person type of post, although up until today I have been denying myself the feeling of missing Guo Zhi Bai who moved back to China last December. The last time I saw him we had a Japanese Lunch together, a Bento lunch box. then he left, and then I didn't hear from him until I saw a facebook update, "Guo Zhi Bai is now in a relationship with Gillian Jiang" Then i deleted him from my mind and never thought twice about calling him. I have a boyfriend he has a boyfriend the end of our story.

The other thing was, I knew if I called he was going to keep asking have i found a job yet? and the embarrassing but honest answer was no. So as the saying goes out of sight out of mind,

Then last week I started my marketing internship and today I suddenly remembered him and the things he used to say, When I was applying for my masters course, I suggested to him that I might like to do a marketing masters and he told me that one job he could never see me doing is marketing and here I am doing marketing. I think he would laugh his head off. Then I wanted to call him and did it and got his voice mail. although I have to admit it was probably one AM over there, probably not the best timing.... but still no answer,

I am still contemplating calling him tomorrow when I am on my lunch break or maybe in the morning on my way to work. But how do you start a conversation with someone you haven't spoken to for an embarrassing 5 months?

other things I am going to be missing for awhile are the following TV shows, All there season finales are rearing their ugly heads

The Vampire Diaries

90210

Gossip Girl

Once Upon a Time

Secret Circle

Desperate Housewives (OVER FOREVER)

But all is not lost I have found some new distractions

The Clientlist

GCB

Pretty little liars (returning in June :D)

So plenty of things to distract me lol

A Secret to share

Sorry for my lack of blogging these days, I just haven't had the time, I found a new obsession at the moment thats interpals. I have become crazy about finding new snail mail pals. I know its probably not necessarily a good thing, because I am keeping it from my boyfriend, I don't really know why I don't want to share it with him. Usually I like to share everything with him. 

I guess its just because its just a privacy thing, Perhaps I have gone mad on letters this month because it's a distraction, just a temporary distraction. I can't really explain why I wanted to start pen-palling and snail mail again I think its because I feel I have an escalating amount of secrets that I am holding in that I find very difficult to say aloud. 

For example things to do with my boyfriends immigration troubles my mom is more than pass remarkable about this she always has some comment to make about him. To be honest shes probably right in most of what shes saying but I don't like to hear it.  I just find it easier to talk about when I write it down. 

Another thing that encouraged me in a way to start pen-palling is a surprising source The Vampire Diaries, I know what you're thinking how does this have anything to do with pen-palling, well it's not so much the pen-palling but more the secret keeping, Elena the non vampire fell in love with a vampire and had to keep it from everyone she loves. It made me think I need someone to open up to and talk to freely. 

Someone who can judge from a far. I like being able to share secrets but also retain some privacy. Is it weird? Anyway whether its weird or not its what I've decided to and have started doing. I really like the feeling of checking the mail and seeing if anything has arrived I just find it so exciting. I really love the anticipation, sometimes it makes me feel like christmas. 

I have done pen-palling before and quit but hopefully this time I won't.