Cheimatophobia

Its amazing the amount of habits you pick up from your spouse when you live together, All my life I have always had a fear of the cold, which I found out today is called Cheimatophobia. Weird never even knew it was a real phobia, but its true I absolutely hate being cold, 

This has caused me countless problems in the past, for example my heat rash on my back, I got into the habit of leaning against radiators in my house on cold days, somedays I would do it with a cushion behind me but other days not, It made me feel really comfortable and toasty most of the time, occasionally I'd feel over heated and move away, but most of the time i could handle it,

But at the end of the winter of doing this. My mom one day noticed a black bruise on my back, and was freaked out. I tried to insist it had always been there but of course it hadn't this was about 3 years ago I think. Tattoo desires never died lol

Anyway the next winter came and I continued doing it and never got the thing checked out.  It didn't hurt. But then I started going out with my boyfriend about 2 years ago and it was the first thing he noticed, I told him it was a birth mark, and he didn't ask too many questions, then we started living together and we have no radiators in our apartment, 

so the habit has almost died down although occasionally I still like to lean against radiators when I'm at my house. but the mark has started disapearing alot. I got it checked out at the doctor and they called it a hot water bottle burn and told me it would disapear gradually.

Thankfully my boyfriend didn't pick up this stupid habit. But part of my fear of cold is, I hate going outside without a coat, although I am starting to get better, Its been really sunny here the last few days, and I have gone out most days with only a demin jacket on.

I will never forget last summer, I was going to the city centre to do some shopping with my sister and out of habit i grabbed my coat ran out the door found it was roasting but I didn't want to run back and drop it off, also i was thinking it would be cold at night time, Anyway I never lived it down, My sister always jokes me, "Sarah where's your coat?"

But my boyfriend is just as bad, everyday last week he wore his coat because when hes in the shade he felt freezing,  so were a right pair lol. 

Tattoo desires

Whilst growing up, I always had some sort of attraction to tattoos, despite my moms efforts to discourage me away from them by saying... They are permanent, They are ugly, They will look horrible when your older, They are meaningless and so on.

I have seen western folk who have gotten Chinese/Japanese/Korean/Thai tattoos that they probably don't know how to pronounce, don't know what it means or have forgotten what it means. Even celebrities like David Beckam have fallen into this Asian exotic tattoos. Well it has never ever crossed my mind to get a tattoo like that, Although my boyfriend wouldn't object to me getting his name tattooed on me,

Its quite tiny but on her foot, if you squint your eyes you may be able to read it

 Whats the meaning?

Angelina Jolie

 David Beckham

But personally I hate tattoos of peoples names, I just think its disgusting. Its like a statement I belong to so and so forever. What if its not forever and you break up like Peter Andre and Jordan? Also I have heard about people getting a tattoo when they were totally drunk which absolutely shouldn't be allowed like Las Vegas shot gun weddings. Madness,

Jordan's Pete Tattoo before and after

Anyway if i was to get a tattoo I would like to get something a bit more original than bunnies or butterflies or hearts or a name, or Asian writing that I can't understand.. I know a lot of people claim to get a tattoo that means something to them... But do things retain the same meaning for your whole life? What means something to you now, may mean nothing to you when your like 80...

So I think something quirky interesting even odd is probably better. I have had 3 Chinese friends who have had tattoos when I met them so I wasn't there during the decision process but anyway one of them had a rose tattoo on there shoulder, one had a wolf on there shoulder, and one had a scorpion on his neck. All of them are pretty random except for the rose, but it was on a very random person, (my former classmate) who you wouldn't think cared much about roses or who you couldn't imagine him giving a girl a bouquet of roses...

My ex boyfriend was also interested in tattoos although he was a bit of a scaredy cat, he wanted to get a tattoo underneath his arm, where nobody could see it... which I thought was absolutely pointless, Whats the point of getting a tattoo you have to hide forever?

As for me I would like to get a tattoo on my back, not a big one or a dainty one but a normalish size one. I have a few ideas.

The first idea is a bat, because they are largely misunderstood, and I really think if I get a tattoo it will be largely misunderstood. Bats are usually associated with darkness. Not that I am a dark person or anything like that but i do have a scar on my back which makes me feel uncomfortable sometimes. I feel its a secret i always have to hide, and Bats always have to live in secret.  hidden in attics etc.  So apart from Batman its pretty difficult to see bats.

I like this one although I would prefer a tattoo on my lower back...

I like this one but I would probably want something to put in the middle or even just put pink ink there, or maybe somebody's name..

I am not sure about this one...

Although this is not a tattoo its very cute|

Another cute bat

Well would any of you like to get a tattoo of something weird and wonderful? and where?

Terrible reaction at 2AM on a Sunday Night

 Yesterday was like any ordinary typical Sunday, I got up late hung around the house doing nothing, waiting for my mom to go and collect my Grandma as usual, so that I could leave and go to my boyfriend's apartment. That happened as usual and then after a few hours i had to go back to my house for dinner and then wait for my dad to drop my Grandma home and me to my boyfriend's apartment again  Usually at about 10ish.

I arrived at the apartment felt freezing wanted to get into bed... My boyfriend wanted to do some late night shopping for some snacks that was fine. We came back had some yogurt played Super Mario til 2am at this stage I was exhausted and wanted us to go to sleep straight away. Then panic struck out... Where is the USB (Camera) with all our application details?

No sooner had he said it til it clicked i had brought it home in my other bag by accident. My boyfriend went ape-shit crazy and said he can't sleep now he's going to be thinking and worrying about it all night. So he started to turn on his computer. I got really annoyed I was  really tired and started insisting that we go to bed then he said no.

Then he  said put your clothes on were going to walk to your house and get if. My initial response was fuck off we will get it in the morning. Then he started shhhing me and telling me to hurry and i just couldn't stop saying fuck off. Resistantly I got dressed walked home got his USB/Camera and then he said your not going back to the apartment.

I started to explain I told my parents I'm sleeping there tonight it will be weird they will think something really strange happened causing me to come back in the middle of the night also everyone's getting up at 7 I won't be able to sleep then he said tough that's your problem Your not coming back with me and with that he left.

Never before has a USB key meant life or death. Anyway I didn't get a wink of sleep woke up felt extremely sick and have  felt horrible all day. Yet I am still considering going down to the apartment and sort out this mess.